To my recent disgrace.

I am currently on my second week of training for the sun run! Running makes me feel unbelievably good. I feel energized and happy and healthy. I'm really enjoying it. I'm even feeling a bit of a difference in the way I run. I'm really happy about it. It also gives me an opportunity to listen to music. I've been listening to Mumford & Sons this past week and my favorite song is Ghosts That We Knew from their new album Babel. I love the guitar sound and obviously Marcus Mumford's voice. Beauuuutiful.

Also, since I'm graduating in June and will have to pay for university in September, I've started applying for scholarship! They're so much work though! Reference letter for this, personal statement for that, write a 5,000 word essay on why you deserve $300. It's insane. The strangest part for my though is thinking about how many other students are applying for the same scholarship. It makes me wonder if perhaps they need more than I do, or are they more deserving? Are they less deserving but have better marks? Am I less deserving of it but because of my extra-curricular activities that somehow makes me a better candidate? It's scares me a little bit because as badly as I want my education to be paid for, is there maybe someone who needs it more than I do but for whatever reason I might get it? Or maybe the other way and I'm more deserving? It's just freaks me out to think about. For instance, I'm applying for a scholarship worth $3,000 but part of the criteria is to have an 87% grade average in grades ten, eleven and twelve. Even though in grades eleven and twelve I did and am surpassing that standard (and had to work my bum off for the marks I recieved), in grade 10 my average was only 86.2%. So, even though I'm super involved in the community, my school and in my academics now, that 0.8% might keep me from receiving $3,000. I'm not sure that's fair but that's the way she goes.