Nelly Gwyn

I read this really wonderful book called, "The King's Favorite," and it's about Nelly Gwyn, who was King Charles II's mistress.
Nelly Gwyn came from a very poor family and worked as a bar maiden until she was 13. She sold her virginity and then sold oranges at a theatre (sounds lame as eff by this was in the 1600's). Eventually she seeks the King's attention because she sells oranges to him when he comes to the theatre and makes him laugh and he really enjoys her.
EVENTUALLY, SHE LITERALLY BECOMES BFF WITH THE KING. Then, they hook up one night and she becomes the King's favorite mistress. I really loved the book and fell in love with Nelly Gwyn and King Charles and their little romance because gosh, who wouldn't? I love history and love and Kings.
So, right?
The thing is, how the heck was Nelly Gwyn or, for that matter, the Queen of England, able to stand King Charles whoring around with a different girl every night and then coming back to lay in their bed once more? Ick. I can't even think of it! What changed though? What was the tipping point? When too many people starting getting sexually transmitted diseases?
I'm still in love with Nelly Gwyn though and I want to be her because she's so fabulous. I get too excited thinking about her. She's so wonderful and I can't stop thinking about her and King Charles.

Pride

What is Pride?

As I work towards graduation, I look back at all of the wonderful things I have done; my high marks, my certificates, my adventures. Yet, I sit here mortified of myself.
Why do I feel like I am failing myself? Like I haven't done quite enough? Where is my self esteem? Haven't I earned at least a little of it after all of the hard work I've put it in to make my family and teachers proud? And more importantly, why aren't I proud? Why don't I feel pride?
I sit in classes with the back of my eyeballs stinging because I feel completely unworthy for anybody. What is wrong with me?

Vienna

You got your passion, you got your pride but don't you know only fools are satisfied. 
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true.

Good/Bad Whatever

Today I ran 10.31 km to prove to myself that I can run a 10km run.

Also, I found out that I didn't get an AMES from UBC. Whatever. I'm dealing with it. It's a pretty bad feeling either way though. Knowing that you aren't quite good enough to be selected, I don't enjoy that feeling and it makes me somewhat upset. I have faced rejection before though and so, I will continue on, living.

MTV Movie Awards

I am repulsed, confused and upset.
I started watching the MTV Movie Awards today and I was so disappointed with everything.
Rebel Wilson was the host and I thought, gee, awesome! I loved her in Pitch Perfect. No. No. No.
Within the first 3 minutes, there were probably about 12 fat jokes made. I don't care how comfortable you are with your body, other people aren't and they can't take those jokes the way you may be able to. To think that you might have been considered a role model of sorts to "bigger" woman, or even just to aspiring actresses, no. I will never see her in that light after the raunchy jokes she made and maybe most specifically, the reference she made to North Korea. Repulsive.
I stayed tuned long enough to see the first award be given out. It was the "Best Male Performances." The nominations were the likes of Jamie Foxx in Django Unchained, Bradley Cooper in Silver Linings Playbook and Ben Affleck in Argo but then they said Channing Tatum in Magic Mike. Are you kidding me? How can you put Channing Tatum up against Bradley Ben Affleck? That is literally disgraceful.
I am so disappointed in both MTV and my generation for thinking bs like that is considered "good TV." And I don't even feel like I'm being too sensitive about it either. I think that something like that is so totally wrong no matter what.
I am horrified by this.

Life

MEAN GIRLS FOREVER.

Mean Girls is the best movie in the whole entire world and I have watched it like 15 times in the past week because it is so wonderful and funny and I can't stop thinking about it because it's so funny and perfect.
It is the best.